So, I am completely new to this blogging thing. I don't really care if you read this because its more of a thing to get my thoughts out there. I'm not looking for a fan club, but if you do decide to read about my life, you may laugh, cry, hate, judge, love, sympathize, empathize, or just think.
I spend all day of every day thinking.. The what ifs, the why nots, the how comes, etc.. They all fill my head. Sometimes I feel as if I'm not of this world. Do people actually think my thoughts? What would they do if they did? Sometimes I feel suffocated, like its hard to breathe. Hopefully this blog will help me to release these thoughts without holding back, and maybe see if someone can relate.
Well, I guess I should introduce myself.. My name is hannah, I'm 22 and from san juan capistrano, CA. As of this chapter in my life, I am living in the armpit of america (wichita falls, tx) and I'm newly in the military. What are the reasons why I joined the military? School and travel. Sometimes I feel like a shitty person because I don't say something along the lines of "to defend my country", or "to be a part of something bigger than myself". My reasons are strictly selfish. But you know what?, I am okay with it for right now.
I constantly feel that my life is going in the right direction and the wrong direction at the same time. But, who really knows that they ARE on the right path? Maybe its the feeling that they get when they accomplish something? Or maybe its the feeling they get when they fail at something?, that they know they are going the wrong way. My whole life I have been trying to find this magical path, the "right path". Or maybe, there is something to be learned on every single wrong path I've taken and I've been on the right path this whole time.
My life is one crazy mess of uncertainty. But I love it.
Until next time...
